It’s been a while since I’ve shared anything here. Life has been quite hectic and I haven’t made the time to write as I should have. But today is Mother’s Day and I am taking advantage of some time that some might think is well-deserved (I know better) to sit in my quiet space and write.
I don’t know what I want to say. Most of the things that have inspired me to write as of late have either been published on my Facebook page in short posts or have been forgotten as I cross the threshold into work or school or home after a long day.
Some exciting things are happening around here. And some not so exciting things. In the time since my last post I started a new job, but didn’t feel quite ready to give up the old one. So I’ve been working a LOT. School is almost out for the semester (good news). I have my final final exam this week in my grueling – but fascinating – microbiology class (wish me luck!). My kiddos are getting bigger and smarter and talk-backier every day, but they are what keep me going, no matter how sluggishly, towards a better me.
Ready for some bad news?
This summer, my dear other half will be taking a “little” time away from us, for about half a year. It sucks. I know. If anyone knows, I know. We’ve gone through it before, but it was before we had kids, and I had lots of time to sulk before sucking it up and getting on with my life in a positive way while waiting for him to return. This time? I have actual people depending on me to care for them. Like, little human beings that will not fare well if I spend as much time as I did the first time lying in bed and eating ice cream for days until the shower called out to me saying, “Hey girl, you stink. Let’s do something about that.”
This time, I have two more people to bathe and feed and drive around and entertain and love. It was hard enough the first time doing all that for myself.
So uh, yeah. Prayers appreciated.
During that time, I’m hoping to have a better work schedule that will allow time with my boys and time for myself. And in that time for myself, I hope to be writing more often.
I so miss this writing thing. I have so many things to put down on this screen you guys. Some of them meaningful, some of them hopeful, some of them questioning things I never thought I would question. Some of them things that I’ve promised others I would write, and here they are still unwritten (sorry, y’all).
If for some reason I spend the next 6-8 months without publishing a single blog post, please know that it is either because I am spending all my time with my family doing fun things and making memories, or it is because I am numb to new ideas from all the weight of loneliness that this sensitive soul is bound to feel.
Let’s hope for the former.
I’ll wrap it up now by saying this is probably the shortest blog post I’ll ever write (I know I have a rambling problem, and I envy people who can say meaningful things in less than 1,500 words. Who even are you people, and when will you teach me your ways?)
Friends, please keep my family in your prayers and a frozen casserole or two on hand in case I ever call you in a panic because my kids and I have eaten nothing but pb&j for a week and I’ve just run out of both.
You all are the best. ♥